5:05 a.m. 47 degrees, wind NW 0 mph. Sky: empty of clouds; a rose wash in the south. A landscape photographer would cut out the sky; there's nothing there, just pale, barren blue. A magazine photographer might not, however . . . an editor could layout a title or a lead graph in the vacant sky; that's about it. A blue void . . . except for a goose, alone and silent, that passes southeast. Wetlands veiled in anorexic mist. I can almost see individual droplets, which collectively blunt the crowns of spruce and fir, which hem the far shore. Veeries spin music out of the mist. Outflow pipe from the pond no longer drips. A pair of robins, like spotted sandpipers, hunt the emergent rocks in the lower of the two permanent streams; pick dormant insects that wait for rain.
House wren back up to speed; rapid-fire song at machinegun pace. Apportioning of resources: seven warblers sing seven different songs in seven different trees from seven different heights.
In the front yard, a pair of hairy woodpeckers idle on the trunk of my black walnut . . . a most personal tree. Thirty-three years ago, when Linny was pregnant with Casey, she decided that we should collect walnuts from a large sweeping tree that grew on a nearby dairy farm. We were given permission to gather nuts, which littered the yard like pebbled linoleum. We collected a bushel, the most magnificent walnuts I'd ever seen, each one almost as big as a baseball, with fragrant, yellow-green husks, like so many odd-shaped apples. Of the approximate one hundred nuts we gathered, seven germinated. After Casey was born, Linny called the sprouts Casey's trees. She planted them in the yard and fussed over them. Four survived the first year. A deer ate one the second year; another died of unknown causes. When we moved to Thetford, seven years later, the trees came with us; two-feet tall—quintessential slow-growing hardwoods—roots longer and stouter than trunks. During the three years that we lived on Houghton Hill, one of the saplings died. By the time we moved to Coyote Hollow, we had two boys and one tree. The walnut was now eight-feet tall. We hired landscapers to transplant it.
When Linny died in 2000, the walnut was coming into its own.
Now, Casey lives in Colorado and the tree, his tree, that his mother so lovingly tended, is over forty-feet tall, more a than a foot thick at breast height, and lords it over the compost pile and garden. Sapsucker holes like necklaces skirt the trunk. A rose-breasted grosbeak, bold among feathery leaves, its breast on fire, sings sweetly . . . a birthday tune. It's Casey's birthday today; he and his tree, a pair of thirty-three-year-olds. Even red-eyed vireos sound sweeter today.
The world's on fire, and a flicker lands in the walnut. Yellow and white and tan, spotted and barred, black bib and mustache, red-nape and gray-crown . . . a birthday bird. I only wish Casey was here to see it.
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I've begun to save your posts for later in my day when I have time or need to stop the world. Like a perfect meditation everything else goes away and I am with you on your morning walk, savoring each image and your wonderful use of words. An anorexic mist stalled my reading long enough for me to see it and laugh. You make staying quiet during Coronavirus a little better. Thank you.
Thanks, Ted! Love your posts. A beautiful tribute to your son and his mother and nature. Thanks for sharing your writing with the world. I once rode horses there with Annie, so I picture your place.